No sleep in countless days
awareness addles the forlorn mind
repeating horrific moments and I pray
to the point I don’t believe they’re mine.
To be at peace with a memory so bright,
I must become a lurid monster..
I shall never ever see a light
only shadows in the dark that maunder.
My Insanity! My Soul! My Master!
Leave me be in selfish peace!
My heart can beat no faster
than the echoed breath in silent ease.
My lost forgotten soul stands
there on the edge of insanity at last!
My mind shall flow into unknown lands
as the hands of dawn touch the meadow of my past.
2007